Me, and my habits....hard to break

MY THOUGHTS

I'd have to admit that when things are tough for me, I don't want to talk to people and I'd rather be prideful and not let people in. Not such a good thing, not that I mean to do it, but it's me acting in my natural man. My goal is to open up and share news with others whether it's happy, sad, or down right depressing, all of the above. I'm always amazed and impressed by how great Toni Dee & Sarah Belle are at keeping in contact with friends and famiy, and always letting us know what's going on in their lives. So, thanks for their examples and there are many others that are awesome at it too!!
I was feeling bummed the last few days, and I'm sure that not having very good sleep pulls at my emotions even more, actually I know that it does, my kids have gone from runny noses to croop to fevers to earaches and then finally onto Sore throats and sore glands....that can make for a bad recipe. Tired mommy, impatient kids, onry mommy in return and the endless cycle continues. We also found out that we won't be getting the house after all, apparently in order to qualify for down payment assistance you can't have a co-signer. Which is mind boggling to me since the people that need this assistance the most are the ones that probably need a co-signer. That news was hard to take, especially since we've lived with my in-laws for almost 4 months now. Basically, not having a enough room can make a mom go nutty!! I'm searching for a place again.. and I'm trying to stay positive and realize that there's a reason for everything and to try and look at it as an adventure, and not something sad. It's tough though, I've been really excited about it, and I've held off for so long on posting about the house in the first place just to make sure that it was really going to happen. Yes, I'm becoming cynical in that way. Everything that I've tried doing lately hasn't worked out, apparently the Lord wants something different then what I want. I just need to come to terms with it.
In my scripture reading I read articles on the LDS website instead of scriptures tonight and I ran onto this quote that really touched me,

"Joseph knew that if he were to stop going forward with this great work, his earthly trials would probably ease. But he could not stop, because he knew who he was, he knew for what purpose he was placed on the earth, and he had the desire to do God’s will."

I basically just put my name in there and read it as follows, "Shana knew who she was, she knew what purpose she was placed on the earth, and she had the desire to do God's will."

The Lord wants us to be happy in good times and in trying times. He wants us to help the church more forward!! The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints provides so much for us. It gives us an eternal perspective. It helps us to not get caught up in things (house things). Those "things" are just a small moment! It helpes me to move forward and to become better from my trials.

SO, those are my two cents... I'm grateful for my Heavnely Father that puts things into perspective for me, when I can't do it myself...